St. Lucia

This year has gotten off to a rough start. We have been through a major and expensive flood at our rental property, lots of sickness, and some big changes at my job that make the future very scary. What better time than now for a getaway? Fortunately we have two very special friends, Matt and Kelly, who decided to get married in a really beautiful place. On May 11th Justin and I said good-bye to our boys for seven days and boarded a place to paradise. It was an amazing trip and I know of no other way to sum it up than to post a few pics.

Here we are on one of our first days having lunch at our wonderful resort.

Kacey and I have been great friends since college. She lives in FL and it was such a treat to spend time with both she and her sweet hubby.

Here we are in the healing mud bath of a volcano. Don't judge! It was good for your skin. Oh and the other couples are Kacey and Chris and Matt and Kelly(the bride and groom).

Here are the girls with the beautiful bride.

The bride and groom with all of their wedding guests. Are they loved or what? That is one large group considering everyone traveled from pretty far away to be there. Most of Matt's family came all the way from the UK.

One last one of the hubby and I doing what you do on a Tropical Island at an all inclusive resort. You relax!

Thanks Mr. and Mrs. Edwards for allowing us to be a part of your special day. It was a trip we will never forget.

TWO YEARS

Faith and Avery are two years old today and they are celebrating in heaven instead of here with us. In some respects this day has gotten easier and in some ways it is so much harder with each passing year. Easier because time heals everything to an extent. Easier because today is a birthday it isn't the day we said good-bye two years ago. Easier because we aren't still sitting in the hospital in disbelief. We have accepted and done our best to move forward.

But it is harder in so many ways. Its harder because we don't have little toddler girls running around our house and I think about that every day. Harder because twins are everywhere and I am sure I have seen at least a dozen today. Harder because with each passing year what we thought would be is further and further away.

God did a lot of good things in our life through the loss of our daughters. That I will never deny. I also know better than to question His most perfect plan. BUT today I am allowed to just be a bit angry, a lot sad, and a mom who did the one thing no mother should never have to do. I am a mom who held her daughters as life left their little bodies two years ago today and that is just hard.